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Remember Nora

     Remember Nora? Well...thought of meeting her after a gap of two years. Had heard a lot from others. Was told how she was a courageous woman, taking everything in her stride and moving on..Had learnt she was admired for the way she behaved. I had almost etched a picture of hers in my mind.  Met her. Found her to be fitting the descriptions I had heard. Felt fact...lighter in my heart. Thanked God for the status quo. And then...without giving a second thought, probed her. Lo and behold!!! A new facet!!! There were no streams of tears but her eyes were wet. No more lumps in her throat when she answered queries about her soulmate and yet her mind always raced back to her children with a prayer in her heart "May God make them as strong as steel - tough, dependable, long lasting."       Time like a typical gypsy had moved on. She had kept abreast with its pace. Yet there were still unanswered queries buried deep within her: She kept getting answers for que

Conversations: Love in Hatred

"Hi sweetheart." "What are you doing here???? you scared the daylights out of me!!!!" "Sorry...I just came to say I love you." "But I hate you." "I love you." "I hate you, I hate you, I hate you." "Why honey?" "I hate you because now I have to pay the bills and take care of finances. I hate you for forcing me to drive on highways and getting me to wash the car. For doing the rewiring in the house, repairing the taps. For letting me sit through whitewashes and distempering. I could go on and on and on. Now you understand why I hate you." "I.... I am....very sorry." "Sorry!!!! You expect me to forgive you???? You know very well that my calculations are weak. I still write six multiplied by six as twelve though my mind knows it is 36. Remember the accident I miraculously escaped???How can you forget? After all, it always gave you a reason to make fun of my d

The News

   Commander Phoenix looked out of the tinted window  in his office. He could see the leaves of all visible trees drooping. He glanced at the clock. It was exactly twelve 'o' clock.    'Good that the weather is so sultry and humid. No wonder then that people have stuck to their offices,' he mused.    Pleasing Commander Phoenix was a tough job. He was a hard task master and had a no nonsense approach. But that afternoon he was a happy man. Before he could mull over the file on his table, the phone rang.    "Hello."    "Hi Phoenix, it is me Winget this side."   Commander Winget was head of a collocated unit. Unlike Commander Phoenix, Commander Winget was quite vocal about his thoughts and had a great sense of humour. In spite of their individual differences both worked in tandem.    "Hey Winget, it is so unlike you to call at this time!" Commander Phoenix was truly surprised receiving the call.    "I know you must


   It has been more than a month since I last blogged. Thankfully it was not a case of 'Writer's Block'. Besides the mundane hassles of shifting and re-shifting I truly felt more like a robot on the move. To add to this were painful blasts from the Past. I had to break free hence  took to modern day fasting- no Whatsapp, no facebook, no blogging, no internet. I thought it will not work, but it really did wonders. And how did it help....well...that is the crux of the matter.    Sometimes, to free oneself from the clutches of pain and despair one has to get head on with it. It is like jumping inside an active volcano to make it dormant. If you face it, you live happily longer; displace it and you just live. Life is all about living and that too living it well, after all, there is no guarantee that we will live again. By the way, even if we do reincarnate, there is every possibility that we might be reborn as a mosquito or a fly that is swotted down the minute it flies f


Finally... Am leaving my base For a new beginning In a new place. Finally... I am taking with me No baggages But memories... Memories... Bitter and sweet. Pleasure and pain And agonies. Have been through hell Now I want some peace. I need to live So let me be. Finally... I have my space A new beginning A new place. Finally... I am taking with me No baggages But memories. Life was a tangle I had to break free. I was suffocated I wasn't me. I had to change I couldn't go on I had enough I had to move on. Finally.... With a smile on my face For a new beginning In a new place. Finally... I am taking with me No baggages But memories. If I could live On my own terms It was because I had best of friends. Some through phone Some nearby Kept me smiling So that I don't cry. I can't thank enough They were always there I feel so blessed They are here to stay. Finally... I've found my true friends. No matte


          I sincerely believe that throughout life, you meet one person unlike any other. To that person you can tell anything to, you could be with them forever and never get bored, and you could tell them things that won't judge you for. This person is your soul mate, never let him go. I found my soul mate and my best friend in what started with hatred followed by love relationship.      And so ends a chapter in my life. Love happened and here I shared with you all how it happened. For every end there is a new beginning. The end of this life chapter was followed by Romance, Marriage and....well, well...will share all and bare all with the passage of time.

Chapter 18: Finale

               I was in my office the next morning when my phone beeped. At first I did not want to read it, but on an impulse I read the message from Mallu.        "I am sorry. I really did not mean to hurt you."        I kept quiet.        "I really miss our coffee breaks together."        Again I kept quiet.        "I really did not want to hurt you."        "It is OK....Sir. I guess I became too big for my boots. I should have remembered, a junior is always a junior. I forgot the protocol. I am sorry."        "It is not about being a junior or senior."        "It really is sir. I was the one to forget."        "Are you still angry?"       My Boss was giving me dirty looks. I could not afford to indulge in messaging. I replied.        "My boss is getting irritated with constant beeps. Can we discuss this later sir?"        "Will you be coming in

Chapter 17: The Final Showdown

        By the time the foursome returned, I had become a workaholic and a bit of a recluse. Senorita kept updating me and Singer about their performance. Not that I was heart broken, but I felt sad how things had soured up. I hated misunderstandings, but now, was in no mood to clear the air. The day they returned, which was a week after their departure, Singer and I were in Senorita's room. I heard sounds of footsteps approaching Senorita's room. Before I could escape, the foursome entered with smiles.        "We passed," said Athlete.        "Let's go out for a movie and party," added Chow.        "Yes, we will have fun," chipped in Brat.        "Get ready by four. We will set course for the movie hall."        Mallu spoke as naturally as ever. But I was hurt and wounded inside. I blurted out.        "It is so nice to hear that all of you have done well, but I will not be able to join in the cele

Chapter 16: Regret, Remorse and Anger

       Inspired by Scarlet O Hara's statement "After all tomorrow is another day," I made coffee and took it next day morning after breakfast. I found Chow sitting in his room. I left the two cups there and returned back. My phone beeped.        "I do not need coffee any more. Stop bringing them. I am busy studying."        I felt really bad and hurt. I thought that maybe in my impulsiveness I had driven away a good friend. I replied.        "I am really sorry for what I messaged yesterday. I just spoke my heart out. I really don't want to lose a good friend."        "Leave me alone."        Like always, I sat and cried. I felt so foolish to have sent him a message without having weighed the pros and cons. After crying my heart out I decided then and there that I will try and avoid going out or hanging out with the group till normalcy returned.        Next day onward I started coming late for lunch and went f

Chapter 15: I Said It

       Exactly a month after our first cup of coffee, we were sipping our coffee in his room. His phone beeped.        "What is the matter? Everything ok at home?"        "Oh yes. Its just that we have an official party this evening."        "Oh, ok. Then I guess, its time for me to get going."        "I did not mean to tell you to go away. There is still time."        "But you have to get ready, right?"        "It is absolutely OK. Sit for some more time. Please."        After an hour I stood up to go; he escorted me till the door (A first again!!!).        " Bye. Enjoy your party."        "These are generally not very interesting. Still I will try."        I heard Athlete, Chow, Brat and him to be loudly calling each other. When the shouts stopped, I understood they had gone. I picked up the latest book I was reading - Margret Mitchell's Gone with the Wind

Chapter 14: Interlude

       The next day was too hectic for me in the office to even exchange messages. My phone too did not beep at regular intervals. When I came back from office I found almost everybody had reached. Seeing me, they all started moving for lunch.        "Shouldn't we wait for Mallu sir and Chow sir? I asked Athlete.        "Oh no, they have gone out on detachment. They will be back only after two days."        I quietly followed with mixed feelings. One part of me felt hurt as to why I was not informed of his going. The other part reasoned it out saying that I was nobody but a junior in his life. Hence, there was no need for him to have  told me.        I reached my room, changed and was about to settle for an afternoon siesta when my phone beeped. Message from Mallu.        "Hi, sorry I could not tell you before I left. It all happened in a hurry."        I cannot tell you how happy I was to have seen that message. I typed.